Doors in time

I've been away from here for a week and the time has flown.  I am entering a new phase in my life, I can sense it, see it, feel it.  It's exciting!!!! It's strange!  I'm happy!!!!!

The last year has been a long one....on the 23rd of June it will have been one entire year, since our beautiful baby grandson Lucas Adrian Middleton left us to go to heaven.  Everything in our lives has changed since then.  How we look at life, what we believe about our religion and our God.  How we want to live, what we want to spend our time doing.  All of it has changed.  

Our daughter Alicia and her husband Paul are expecting another baby in about 7 or 8 weeks.  You may know she has been undergoing treatment so that this baby will not have the same liver problems as little Lucas.  All is looking well and for the first time in a very long time they seem really happy.  Not just the happy you pretend to be, but really happy.  We are all still a little nervous, I guess we will be until the new little one goes home safely.  We try not to think of the things that can go wrong but they wriggle in the back of our minds sometimes.  

So right now we are expectant, excitedly waiting with baited breath.

I am madly weeding, soil testing, planting and wondering if I should have yet.  Maybe those Camellia's won't survive in that soil, fingers crossed.  I am reading and reading and researching organic farming and planning my patch of vegies in my mind.  I am so excited about planting my first seeds and yet I know I have to wait till I have properly prepared the soil.  I am impatient by nature so I struggle with that.

So right now it's as if I am about to open a new door in my life.  The door that will take me into a room with a tiny baby, with tiny toes and a giggle and coo that will melt my heart.  Further in I will be busily growing and hopefully giving away and maybe even selling my fresh vegies.  In one corner there is room for dancing lessons with my husband and cooking nights together.  In the other corner, new friends we hope to meet in our neighbourhood and even a space for my brand new Mac computer.  Some room for my photography and scrapbooking and the blissful peace and quiet of our new home.  This new door is inviting, don't you think?