Precious Lucas my beautiful little man forever
2009 was not the best year for us. It started out great, my eldest daughter was having a baby in June and we were all so excited. We would be grandparents for the first time, Alicia and Paul, parents for the first time and Ashleigh & Danielle, aunties for the 1st time. We knew we would be overseas when Lucas was born, but we would be back a couple of days after so wouldn't miss too much, I was a bit disappointed but there wasn't a lot I could do, the trip had been planned so long before. Things did not go as planned though and if you read my other blog Through the Valley of Life you will read all off what transpired and why for the most part 2009 was a disaster. But the good news and I have been longing to share it with you, but have been sworn to secrecy until now, is that my gorgeous girl is having a baby again. Yes in August this year we will be grandparents again. My eyes well up, my throat is tight, my heart is aching but I am happy too. It is a long road our Alicia is walking now, there are weekly infusions of a blood product to prevent the next baby from being born with the liver disease that took our beautiful Lucas. Alicia started her first treatment on Wednesday and it went better than expected, but she was quite unwell the following day. She will have these treatments until the baby is born so please keep her in your thoughts and prayers. Both her and Paul are happy, but also they must be feeling a little overwhelmed, a little frightened, we, none of us could go through losing another little one. My heart breaks for those parents who have lost children, babies or toddlers any age it is just so out of order. It is the most unbearable grief, but now we have hope, we have something so wonderful to look forward to. We got the news that they were pregnant on Christmas morning no better gift did we recieve that day, a special day a day of wonderful gifts given to us by God. I wanted to share with you all, my joy and my sadness, but most of all my hope that 2010 will bring more love than we have ever known. I want to share that with you too.