Today I went to the cemetary to see Lucas's plaque. Alicia told me a day or two ago it had come. I wanted to see it, I didn't want to go, I wanted to go. I went and I sat on the grass, grown over the dirt now and I cried. My tears were bitter, angry, sad, so sad, lonely, I cried. I wanted to scratch away the earth and find it was a dream, he was at home with his mummy and daddy, but no. So I cried. I came home puffy eyed and still teary and at the door was a blue and white carton. Oh what a surprise, my pay it forward gift from Christina. Sometimes things just happen at the right time. I sniffled a little, wiped my eyes and opened my gift with a smile lifting my lips. Oh sweet Christina... a beautiful gift that arrived at just the right time. Thank you, dear thank you. I am going to frame your gorgeous print and funny how just today I thought I might make a hot and sweet apple crumble, so your Apple Pie Spice will be just right. Such a beautiful card and a fabric square that I will put my thinking cap on to make something from. And an apple sauce recipe yum!! Thak you again, your timing is impeccable.